Curl up

So, if I curl up, will it hurt? What if I just ignore it, but I need it in life, do I?I have a replacement, but will help? I want to be older, and I want freedom. I don't want theses obstacles in the never ending game of Life. Life or death? Whats better? is there any hope? Where is the light at the end of the tunnel? Its been 2 years and 3 months, were is the light? Will this change me? Or has it already? I don't need this, or do I? Is it suppose to be like this? Whats the point? Can I get through? is this to much? What do I do? Whats my child to help me cope? Do I have one? Is it gone? Did it run away? What ever I do, I'll never lower my shield, for that is an opportunity of disaster, but if disaster strikes, it won't make a difference. I'm trying to be the stronghold, do I need to be tough? Is my defense strong enough? Will I collapse?

I can handle it, I'm fine...

-Jem